01 Dec

Christine McVie of Fleetwood Mac passed away yesterday, another great from the era of Rock & Roll. Memories were instantly evoked of long gone yesterdays. Days when I was struggling so hard with all those adoption feelings that were never spoken aloud, the angst felt, the anger of what was and the feelings of abandonment so strong. The drives I went on after getting off work at night, just driving with the tunes cranked and the windows down helped kept me alive.

I still have those feelings of abandonment at times and expect I always will.

I still have trust issues when it’s personal.

I still doubt I’m worthy of being loved.

Adoption has it’s place but it should be exceedingly rare, and only when every other option has been fully explored, because the price paid over a lifetime is too high.

Rest in Peace Christine McVie.


Posted by on December 1, 2022 in Adoption


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7 responses to “Feelings

  1. Lara/Trace

    December 1, 2022 at 6:58 pm

    (sobbing) Say you that you love me? I love you Tao.


    • TAO

      December 1, 2022 at 7:46 pm

      Awe Lara – love you too my friend. Be kind to yourself.

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      • Lara/Trace

        December 1, 2022 at 7:50 pm

        It’s so hard to lose people like her and I felt like Fleetwood Mac was “our” band. I saw them in Minneapolis at an outdoor show and Lindsey signed my ticket ( SWOON!) He said something like I hope to see you again. (HEART ATTACK). I was a singer back them and we did lots of their songs, so losing her was HARD…

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  2. Dannie

    December 2, 2022 at 1:07 am

    Awwww. While Fleetwood Mac wasn’t my band, music is amazing and can really get us through rough patches.


    • TAO

      December 2, 2022 at 3:00 am

      Indeed it does, always turn to music when I’m struggling.

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      • Dannie

        December 2, 2022 at 4:49 pm

        On an unrelated note but related, I was able to acquire Taylor Swift tickets for E and I but Im not telling her snd it will be a Christmas present. I am now poor 🤣. But Taylor Swift is what has gotten my kid through rough times and she never asks for anything so I felt like I needed to try and find a way to get her Into a concert.


        • TAO

          December 2, 2022 at 5:48 pm

          Well done Dannie – sometimes it’s worth going out on a limb – pretty sure it’ll be something she never forgets.



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