I’ve been struggling lately, worried my brain was getting worse, researching to find out more about my brain and the damage the stroke caused, and whether it could be impacting me this far out, or if something else was going on in my brain I needed to worry about. I’ve been doing this because not only has it affected my daily life, mistakes I’ve made that I wouldn’t have before, forgetting things all the time, lack of concentration. I was getting worried about what the future holds for me, and more importantly, how my other half will have to deal with it. None of the above was helped by watching my other half remain unchanged, he forgets what isn’t important to him, remembers in minute detail things he deems important, just like he always has. He’s the same old, same old.
Yesterday, I had my ah-ha moment when someone did a tweet asking if anyone else was having word-finding, memory problems, etc.. That tweet went viral, I’m glad it did so I saw it, and because validation by others of something I’ve been worried about, helps.
Words of confirmation of the challenges offered by others, also included these terms: cognitive load, chronic stress, trauma, survival mode, information overload, lack of attention, inability to concentrate, fear, and so much more. Reading the replies lifted a load off my shoulders that it wasn’t just me, it also made me think about the different things that have made life better for me since the pandemic happened (both/and thinking). From adding a couple of cats to the family, to the casual chit-chat with the employee at the grocery store who brings out my weekly online order for curbside pickup, to the neighbor who sometimes decides to help both of us with our yard, to the other stores who pull orders for me and go above and beyond, simply because, I’m a long-time customer, to the old man who walks by my home most days and stops to chat for a minute.
And Thank You to all of you who stop and read my posts, and sometimes even choose to leave a like or join the conversation in the comments (this is me encouraging all of you to leave a comment, join the conversation, post something off topic or on topic, or a question). All of that has helped me through this unwelcome journey we’ve all been on, and now that I know it’s not just me, I can worry less, also with gardening season finally here, I can get my hands into the dirt, which for me is the best medicine in the world to get me on firm ground.
Cheers! Stay Safe!
Article from Science Direct: Stress resilience during the coronavirus pandemic
From The Guardian: Brain fog: how trauma, uncertainty and isolation have affected our minds and memory (and yes, I forgot to add this article…:))