I’ve wanted to write about this for a long time. I’ve danced around it, alluded to it, but haven’t been able to talk about it directly.
Today’s the day I’m going to talk about it.
When I lose a beloved animal friend, I cry big heaving sobs. I’ll cry off and on throughout the first day, cry a few times each day for a week or so, tear up in the weeks to come.
I don’t cry when people close to me die. I’ll tear up, tears will roll down my face, but I don’t cry. I’m not sure I’ve ever cried when someone has died other than my son, he was the exception.
I feel sad. I miss them. I mourn their passing. I find myself wanting to tell them about something and realize they aren’t here anymore. Yet, I don’t cry for them.
I don’t know if it’s being stoic, or because I know it is the cycle of life and everyone who was part of my life is still in my life, just in a different way, or because I cried too many tears when I was little and I’ve conditioned myself not to cry anymore because everyone leaves.
Do you cry? Really cry when someone passes away?